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The Beginning of The End

 Almost 2 years since the last time I heard your voice. been struggling to keep loving you or try to forget. Try to find something about you, have you moved on, are you happy now or have you been with someone else. not much i know but seems you are happy now and i wish that too every night. Now i decided to do what i should do at first, let you go from my brain from my heart. 1 more month for me, and i hope can see you in white someday. Love you Mel, i send all my love to our next life, i wish i can be a better person and deserve you.
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5. Happy Birthday to You

 Happy belated birthday my dear,  I know its really late, i am not forgetting but I'm trying to forget. every time i try to run away, i went deeper. I feel just hollow, you are the air, the mass, the water that can fill me full. Hope you are the best in your birthday, i wish you find you happiness in every way, even tho im still wishing im your happiness and you will find me. With love, 
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4. Where are you?

I'm sure its not that hard to find people,  but when you ask it will never be fulfilled. Is it an irony?  Remember a sentence that you always said, What do you feel you attract?  i feel loving you, why i attracted to hurt? is loving you hurting me?
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3. Prayer has been answered

Hi, how are you? Almost 1 year now and i still here trying to achieve more to be closer to you. Now i realize it was in vain, i can achieve more but i cant close to you. The prayer has been answered, i exchanged my happiness for your happiness, and now i believe it will happen. I Love You in eternity
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2. Another day - Another longing for

9 months already and still miss you. Hi there, i thought about something this morning (or just realized). Having a morning run and suddenly this came to my mind. You let your whatsapp open to me for like 6 months is for a chance to me to contact you but im not? You once told me that even you consider your ex as "DIE" you drink with your ex and let him drive you "Home". can it happen to me as well? please... Mel, my ambition to be closer to you is still burning, i almost achieved my 1st milestone and if i achieved i will send you a message and ask you to meet up. Hopefully, i can be your "Another Ex" that can drink with you, or can be better than him. Love you
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1. Another Dreams - Another Day

Aku tak terlalu pintar memulai tulisan seperti ini, tapi ku coba. ada hal yang ingin ku bagikan. 2 hari lalu ku bermimpi, mimpi yang selama ini ku impikan terjadi di kenyataan. Ku terbangun dan seolah terkejut dan tersadar bahwa ini adalah mimpi, ku coba menerima meski memang ku tak rela. Mimpi ku dia datang menemuiku, bertemu orang tua ku, dan orang tua nya datang juga. Serasa pertemuan yang akrab, kami duduk merangkul satu sama lain, dan itu seperti sebuah pertemuan keluarga yang biasa.  Tak lama orang tuanya pulang kerumah, dan dia tetap bersama ku yah kami sudah menikah dan orang tua nya datang mengunjungi kami. Sayang nya itu hanya lah mimpi lain di hari yang lain. Sekarang ku kembali berpikir, jika ku bisa kembali pada titik waktu tertentu, ku ingin kembali pada 2006. Tahun di mana ku mulai masuk SMA. kenapa? karena ku ingin belajar lebih baik lagi, meski nilaiku cukup baik saat itu 3 besar adalah langganan ku, tapi ku ingin beljar lebih baik lagi agar ku bisa menetap di luar...
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Lovesick

Trying to turn back the past, the moment for both of us, people said i cant, no of course i can. i know you are trying to forget about us, maybe you turn to hate me.  as long as its you i dont mind, i love you in any way. I miss you, and i keep dreaming about you.
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